Vroom.

i went through a bad ride in life recently. i can almost say that the ride ended with a crash. but, God picked me up. badly hurt, even got me thinking whether it is repairable, yet i believe that He mends all things. God is awesome. His words will not fail. Amen!

after awhile

have not been updating my blog for quite some time now. the school holidays started of well. went to kl and had fun with my cousins and aunty. walked around a lot and visited places like the butterfly park, and the tugu. also, i watched new moon, and as twilight, it was slow moving but this time, more enjoyable. it was funny and a little irritating to hear the girls in the cinema going all 'oooooh' and 'aahhhh' throughout the movie. hopefully the rest of the holidays will be fun as the start of it.

spiritually, God has been real in my life. prayers answered miraculously and hearing great testimonies, all of which have made me more in love and passionate about this awesome and great God. so i thank the Lord for everything and i pray that Jesus be as real as He is in your life too!

straight face

wee! after 3 months of mental torture enduring the hard task of being a probationary prefect in school, i'm finally installed as a prefect. i thought i couldn't do it as i even tried to quit halfway but i guess with motivation from friends and guidance from God, i finally became a prefect. i can still remember quite clearly the prayer we said at yoon-chan cell about 2 months back, that is for God helping us to make it to the end. well, God answers prayers and indeed He helped us! thank you Lord!

i can search for all eternity long, and find there is none like You.

no one else can touch my heart like You do.

i was down lately, mentally and spiritually. then, i came into His presence, and His love just brought joy and life back into me once more. i want to challenge myself not to write anymore sad or defeated posts, because they're all a waste of space for i know my Lord is awesome and i will be lifted up. so if i were to write, i would write of His greatness alone. i love you Lord. praise God!

glory goes to God

we had the preliminary round in school to see who gets to represent the school for the english public speaking competition. after they chose me, i regretted because the burden was heavy. the competition was so close and the script wasn't done. such problems came flooding in. a week before the competition, at prayer meeting, i requested for a prayer that God helps me. the answer was quick when the teacher told me that the competition was postponed to after raya! that is about a month away! this gave me more time to prepare a good script! God is awesome!

i got the finalized script on the wednesday, a week before the competition. i have a major problem memorizing anything and when i went for prayer meeting that night. once more, i needed God to intervene, and indeed He did! i memorized the entire 8-ish minute script in a day and a half. God is great!

on the day of the competition, i was heck nervous. i've so far never perform the whole speech without making any mistakes in it. a whole lot of people were praying for me, and i prayed too. a few minutes before they called me up to deliver my speech, my nerves just left. i was calm. i knew it was the peace of God that had come upon me and during the speech, my mind was constantly inline with God to help me that the whole thing went smoothly! i performed it very confidently and i knew that God really does answer prayers, thus, i gave a big thanks to God for He is so awesome!

when it was time to announce the results, i told God that the situation is in His hands and that whatever placing i be in, will be the best for me. but i did mention it being nice to win! i was called last after the 19 contestants were called out, meaning i won! what a blessing i thought, God did not only help me with the preparations, and the speech itself, He gave me victory!

to top it all off, i appeared in utusan malaysia with the other winners. it felt so great and i felt so grateful that i just want to give all glory to God and to keep none.

God is amazing and i love Him. AMEN!

i'll be going to kuantan for the national round on the 27th. keep me in prayer!

victory

victory is in Christ. amen.

i was feeling down and sorta released my blacken emotions when i wrote the previous post. but i am now delivered and freed from that state thanks to God who is indeed our comforter!

wee!

gone

i want it to stop. far as it is, is already enough. regret is a painful word. sad to say, is used at times where defeat won. fall, down so fast it hurts when it breaks whats left. is the depth of the place highly great that rescuing no longer takes place. broken, so bad actions can't fix it. when pulled, when fallen, is there no chance of going back. just as time passes, with everything that has been done. none left, none savored, none kept; gone. emotions wasted, uncontrolled, re-written to be exact. laughter heard from a place far undone. gone as it is.

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